Posted by Anonymous on 2015/01/30 under Uncategorized Ok first what is on my mind right now is the fact that people don’t really seem to realise how daunting is is for me to wear shorts in public or have my hair up in public, and whenever I go out somewhere with someone I’m constantly self conscious and shaky and it’s almost like I can feel my anxiety coursing through my body and I will non stop say things like ‘I’m wearing shorts’ or ‘my hair is up’ to the person I’m with and that’s because I want them to say something really nice and reassuring but all they do is say ‘you look fine! Stop worrying!’ And I’m kinda like WOW no I am healed of my anxiety!!!1! I’ll never feel self conscious agAIN!!!1 Or they just act really disinterested bc its probably the hundredth time I’ve said that and then I get even more anxious and think: ‘omg they’re annoyed me I wanna go home and curl up in a ball in my bed and cry’ or ‘I bet they didn’t even want me to come with them’ and then I just wanna go home and literally just cry and sleep. Also I tried talking to my parents about this whole social anxiety type thing and they just kinda said stuff like ‘don’t worry sometimes I feel like that too’ and I’m kinda like no you don’t understand the level of anxiety that I have like I’m not just discussing something small here I WANT you to offer to take me to a freaking doctor and do tests on me so I can be officially diagnosed like yes please bc then I’ll know that I’m not just subconsciously faking it for attention
Ok I’m done for now bye